This episode is a vulnerable, honest, real conversation about what happens when you finally stop running from yourself, even when nothing is technically "wrong".

I’m sharing a very raw moment from my own life a night where I noticed myself wanting to escape. Not because I wasn’t grateful. Not because my life was falling apart. But because things were actually good… and I still felt empty.

I want to talk about what no one else really mentions.

I am deeply grateful for my life. I can see how good I have it. And at the same time, my nervous system felt unsettled, restless, and disconnected. I found myself trying to use gratitude to move out of the moment and to override what I was feeling instead of staying with it.

I wanted to travel impulsively. ( I know myself well enough to know that Mexico and a margarita have been a coping mechanism)

I considered drinking wine I didn’t even like therefor I would have been settling and numbing.

I vegged out with TV that wasn’t doing anything for me.

All these subtle ways of saying: I shouldn’t feel this way let me move past it.

And for the first time, I caught the pattern while it was happening.

Instead of bypassing my emotions with gratitude, distraction, or positive thinking, I chose to stay. I turned off the TV. I didn’t drink. I didn’t run. But I cried ... a lot.. stopped and cried again. I felt. I let myself be with the emptiness without judging it or trying to fix it.

In this episode, we talk about:

• Why you can feel grateful and empty at the same time

• How gratitude can quietly become a form of emotional bypassing

• Why the nervous system resists calm, stability, and “good enough”

• How self-sabotage shows up as restlessness, impulse, or escape

• What it actually means to meet yourself exactly where you are

• How nervous system safety is required to hold more money, love, expansion and your next level

This episode is especially for the woman who:

• Feels guilty for struggling when her life looks “good” on paper

• Uses gratitude as a tool but still feels disconnected or empty

• Is calling in more but doesn’t yet feel safe to hold it

• Is ready to stop fixing, forcing, and bypassing her inner experience

What I realized that night is this:

When your system has been wired for chaos, peace can feel unfamiliar. And when things are going well, your body may try to recreate movement just to feel familiar again.

The shift didn’t come from gratitude alone.

It came from self-trust.

From letting myself feel without needing to change it. From staying instead of running. From allowing gratitude to coexist with discomfort not cancel it out.

And that’s how I know something is changing.

Because I didn’t run.

If you’ve ever wondered why you feel the urge to sabotage, escape, or create chaos when things are going well this episode will help you understand what’s happening on a nervous system level, and how to begin building the capacity to stay.

Because the moment you stop running…

is usually the moment everything starts to shift.

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If you’re in a season where everything feels heavier than it should and you’re quietly losing connection to your goals this episode is for you.

This is not a motivational talk or a reminder to think positive. This episode is about real hope. The grounded kind. The kind that still exists when you’re tired disconnected and unsure how to want again without hurting yourself.

In this episode we talk about why hope disappears during dark seasons and why that doesn’t mean you’ve failed. We explore why forcing belief backfires and creates more disconnection especially for ambitious self aware people who have already tried everything. You’ll hear a redefinition of hope that doesn’t require certainty positivity or pretending you’re okay.

This episode is for you if you feel emotionally disconnected from your dreams overwhelmed by expectation or afraid to want again after disappointment. It’s a reminder that numbness is not the end of desire it’s protection. And that real hope isn’t loud or dramatic it’s quiet steady and rooted in staying with yourself.

Inside this episode you’ll hear
Why losing hope is often self protection not giving up
What hope actually is when belief doesn’t feel accessible
Why wanting again can feel unsafe after disappointment
How to stay connected to yourself and your goals without forcing motivation
A grounded reframe that brings safety back to desire

If this episode meets you in a dark moment let it. You don’t need to feel ready or certain. You just need to stay.

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Expansion is not gentle. It is not passive. And it does not happen while you’re standing still.

In this solo episode of I'll Keep You Wild, we explore expansion as a tug of war between who you’ve been and who you’re becoming. Your past identity and your future self are pulling on opposite ends of the rope, and the middle is being slowly worn down. That dark, uncomfortable middle space is not failure. It’s friction. It’s the moment before the rope snaps.

I dive into why growth feels so heavy when you keep feeding both versions of yourself, and why true expansion requires a full-bodied commitment to the future you, even when it feels terrifying, uncertain, and unfamiliar. The unknown is scary because it asks you to release control, safety, and the identity that once kept you alive.

We talk about the grief that comes with saying goodbye to the version of you that got you here, and why honoring that version doesn’t mean taking them with you. Some identities are meant to be thanked, released, and set free. The cutting of the rope is not loss. It’s liberation.

If you’re in the in-between, the liminal space, the place where nothing feels settled and everything feels raw, this episode is for you. Expansion demands your attention, your energy, and your devotion. And whichever identity you feed is the one that wins.

This is an episode about transformation, nervous system expansion, identity shifts, and becoming the version of you that can hold more, be more, and experience what you desire.

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In this episode, I sit down with Lauren Pederson, Miss British Columbia Canada 2025, for an honest conversation about fear, pressure, and mental health advocacy.

Lauren shares the hurdles she faced this year, including navigating public expectations and a frightening experience where she was followed to her car a moment that reinforced her mission to help make Canada safer for woman and girls.

As a youth advocate, mental health supporter, Child and Youth care student and founder of The Inspire Initiative, Lauren talks about using her platform to uplift young people, support women, and create meaningful community change. We also discuss healthy habits, managing self-doubt, staying authentic under pressure, and what it truly means to feel like yourself.

This episode is full of real girl- talk energy, reflection, and encouragement for anyone navigating confidence, self-worth, personal growth, and mental wellbeing.

Lauren also shares what she’s protecting and continuing to build as she looks ahead to 2026 and her future in counselling psychology and nonprofit work.

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If you’re into personal growth, nervous system healing, manifestation, or mindset work but still feel stuck, unmotivated, or frozen this episode is for you.

This is not a how-to podcast.
You don’t need more information. You already know what to do.

What you might not realize is that what you’ve been calling trusting the timing or integration could actually be your nervous system staying in freeze after disappointment, unmet expectations, or feeling like you failed.

In this personal episode, I share how I recognized that waiting for clarity, safety, or the “right time” wasn’t expanding me, it was protecting me. After things didn’t go as planned, my nervous system stopped feeling safe to desire, to move, or to try again. And instead of addressing that, I tried to do more of a checklist.

If you feel stuck despite having clarity…
If motivation disappeared after things didn’t work out…
If you’re self-aware but still not moving forward…
If you’re tired of doing “all the work” and wondering why nothing’s shifting…

This episode will land.

We talk about nervous system freeze, self-sabotage that doesn’t look like self-sabotage, why knowledge doesn’t equal action, and the truth about why desire shuts down after disappointment.

This is a reminder, not a lesson.
A call-out, not a strategy.

You’re not stuck because you’re incapable.
You’re stuck because your body learned it wasn’t safe to move.

And remembering who the fuck you are is the first step out.

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If 2026 was your best year ever, what would it actually look like?

In this episode, I guide you through a powerful vision board experience designed to help you get clear on the life you want to create in 2026. This is not about vague goal setting or wishful thinking. This episode is about intentional visualization, focus, and aligning your goals across every area of your life.

We begin with a grounding journal activation to help you slow down, tune in, and reconnect with what you truly want. From there, I walk you through how visualization works, why your brain needs clarity to move toward your goals, and how the reticular activating system influences what you notice, pursue, and attract in your daily life.

I also share personal stories to help you see what is possible when vision, belief, and action work together. Throughout the episode, I introduce three simple but powerful vision board hacks to help your goals feel more real, more embodied, and easier to follow through on.

This episode supports you in creating a 2026 vision board focused on health, wealth, relationships, environment, family, fun, travel, and personal development. Whether you are creating a physical vision board, a digital one, or simply writing things out in your journal, this episode is meant to be experienced, not rushed.

Below are the reflection and journaling questions mentioned in the episode. I recommend setting aside quiet time to sit with each one and write freely.

Vision Board Journaling Questions for 2026

What is your word of the year?
What are you experiencing in your day to day life?
What are you wearing?
Where are you going?
How much do you want to make per month and per year?
What are your personal development goals?
How do your relationships look and feel?
What is a personal affirmation you can truly believe?
What quotes, words, or sayings do you want to add to your vision?
Are you trying anything new?
What projects do you want to work on?

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What does it truly mean to be a wealthy woman? Veena Jetti, founder of Vive Funds and creator of over a billion dollars in real estate assets, defines it as having the freedom and power to choose, without being trapped. In this episode, Veena shares how mindset, confidence, and emotional intelligence allow women to lead boldly, rise in leadership, and create the life they want.

We dive into how women can unapologetically embrace their power, the importance of having the best people at the top regardless of gender, and why men also benefit from having female coaches. Veena also shares lessons on personal growth, mindset coaching, community, and balancing entrepreneurship with motherhood.

This episode is packed with actionable insights, motivation, and a challenge for listeners to break the habit of unnecessary apologies. Whether you want to strengthen your money mindset, build confidence, or lead with emotional intelligence, this conversation will inspire you to embrace your choices and live life on your own terms.

Timestamps:
00:00 Introduction to Veena Jetti
01:43 Empowering Women in Finance
03:39 Challenging Patriarchal Structures
05:35 Personal Journey and Mindset
09:11 Motherhood and Legacy
15:43 Redefining Success and Competition
19:14 Mindset Coaching and Personal Growth
27:14 The Power of Community and Abundance
28:21 The Importance of Female Coaches for Women
29:11 Why Men Should Have Female Coaches
30:02 Emotional Intelligence in Leadership
40:12 The Value of Failure and Mindset Challenges
42:36 Rapid Fire Questions and Personal Insights

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In today’s episode, I’m getting real and sharing something I haven’t talked about publicly before. For the past three months, I’ve been moving through a major breakdown one of those identity-shifting, soul-stretching seasons where nothing feels stable, everything feels messy, and it seems like your manifestations are nowhere in sight. If you’ve been wondering why your manifestations aren’t happening yet, this episode is exactly what you need.

I talk about the “messy middle”// dark hole of despair, that strange in-between space where you’re leaving one version of yourself behind and becoming the version of you who can actually hold the things you’re calling in. I share why your manifestations may be delayed (and why that’s actually divine timing), how your identity and energetic capacity play the biggest role in manifestation, and why surrender—not control—creates the breakthrough.

I open up about my own experience with surrender, trust, and letting go of forcing outcomes. I’ve been calling this my own “surrender experiment,” trusting God and the universe in a way I never have before. As a manifestation mindset coach, this feels raw to talk about because I’ve been struggling but I also know this breakdown is building the foundation for my next expansion.

If you’re navigating uncertainty, feeling stuck, or wondering why things seem to be falling apart right before your breakthrough, this episode will remind you that nothing is going wrong. You’re becoming the version of you who can receive everything you’ve been manifesting.

In this episode, I cover:
✨ Why your manifestations aren’t here yet
✨ Identity shifts and energetic capacity
✨ The purpose of breakdowns on your manifestation journey
✨ How to hold faith in the “waiting period”
✨ Why surrender creates alignment
✨ My current season of trust, vulnerability, and divine timing
✨ What the messy middle actually means for your expansion

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