This episode is a vulnerable, honest, real conversation about what happens when you finally stop running from yourself, even when nothing is technically "wrong".

I’m sharing a very raw moment from my own life a night where I noticed myself wanting to escape. Not because I wasn’t grateful. Not because my life was falling apart. But because things were actually good… and I still felt empty.

I want to talk about what no one else really mentions.

I am deeply grateful for my life. I can see how good I have it. And at the same time, my nervous system felt unsettled, restless, and disconnected. I found myself trying to use gratitude to move out of the moment and to override what I was feeling instead of staying with it.

I wanted to travel impulsively. ( I know myself well enough to know that Mexico and a margarita have been a coping mechanism)

I considered drinking wine I didn’t even like therefor I would have been settling and numbing.

I vegged out with TV that wasn’t doing anything for me.

All these subtle ways of saying: I shouldn’t feel this way let me move past it.

And for the first time, I caught the pattern while it was happening.

Instead of bypassing my emotions with gratitude, distraction, or positive thinking, I chose to stay. I turned off the TV. I didn’t drink. I didn’t run. But I cried ... a lot.. stopped and cried again. I felt. I let myself be with the emptiness without judging it or trying to fix it.

In this episode, we talk about:

• Why you can feel grateful and empty at the same time

• How gratitude can quietly become a form of emotional bypassing

• Why the nervous system resists calm, stability, and “good enough”

• How self-sabotage shows up as restlessness, impulse, or escape

• What it actually means to meet yourself exactly where you are

• How nervous system safety is required to hold more money, love, expansion and your next level

This episode is especially for the woman who:

• Feels guilty for struggling when her life looks “good” on paper

• Uses gratitude as a tool but still feels disconnected or empty

• Is calling in more but doesn’t yet feel safe to hold it

• Is ready to stop fixing, forcing, and bypassing her inner experience

What I realized that night is this:

When your system has been wired for chaos, peace can feel unfamiliar. And when things are going well, your body may try to recreate movement just to feel familiar again.

The shift didn’t come from gratitude alone.

It came from self-trust.

From letting myself feel without needing to change it. From staying instead of running. From allowing gratitude to coexist with discomfort not cancel it out.

And that’s how I know something is changing.

Because I didn’t run.

If you’ve ever wondered why you feel the urge to sabotage, escape, or create chaos when things are going well this episode will help you understand what’s happening on a nervous system level, and how to begin building the capacity to stay.

Because the moment you stop running…

is usually the moment everything starts to shift.

Thanks for being here :)

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