I almost didn't record this episode.

Not because I don't care, but because everything in my life feels heavy right now. And I don't have the clarity I'm used to bringing into this space. But instead of waiting until I feel better or have it all figured out, I'll do it sad.

This episode is a real time check in. No polished message, no perfectly packaged takeaway...just me being honest about what it looks like to keep going when things feel uncertain.

I talk about what this runDisney season has meant to me, briefly, the highs, the setbacks, and the community that's keeping me grounded as I head into Springtime Surprise Weekend at Walt Disney World Resort. And more than anything I came back to this:

Do it scared.

Do it sad.

Do it when you don't know.

Because sometimes the win isn't having the answers...it's not disappearing.

What if you're not underfueling...you're overfueling?

In this episode, I'm breaking down how I went from blindly following fueling formulas to actually learning what my body needs, and why those "one size fits all" recommendations might be holding you back more than helping you.

We talk about the reality of overfueling, GI issues, sodium overload, and why effort, not just time or distance, should guide how you fuel. I also share how using power changed the way I understand my runs, and why heart rate alone doesn't tell the full story.

This episode goes deeper into my personal experience training with Ulcerative Colitis, navigating food limitations, fatigue, and the constant balance of trying to fuel enough without overwhelming my system.

If you're training for a race, following advice you've seen online, or just trying to figure out what actually works for you, this is your reminder that your body is not a formula.

Take what resonates, leave what doesn't, and start learning what works for you.

This year, I've only run 77 miles outside of racing.

And for a second, I thought that meant I was losing everything I worked for.

But the more I sat with it, the more I realized...I'm not starting over.

In this episode, I'm breaking down the difference between completely stopping and actually maintaining your base. We talk about what a base really is, what's happening in your body when you build it, and why you don't lose your fitness as quickly as you think you do.

I also get into the pressure a lot of us feel to always be training, always progressing, always chasing the next race...and how that mindset can quietly lead to burnout.

Because a hard truth is, most of us aren't getting paid to do this..but we're structuring our lives like we are.

So this is a conversation about finding balance. About doing enough without doing everything. About staying connected to running without letting it take over your life.

If you've ever felt like you're falling behind, like you've lost your fitness, or like you have to start over every time you step away...

you're not starting over.