This isn’t a teaching episode.

This is a testimony.

2025 was the year God stripped it away.

Not gently. Not quietly. Not one thing at a time.

But layer by layer… identity by identity.

And for the first time in my entire adult life, I was left standing without the things that told me who I was.

If you want to learn how to embrace the Dirt on your journey, come join me over on Substack at kawailani.substack.com

I'm kicking off the new year of 2026 with a Season of episodes called When God Clears the Garden So New Growth Can Come

Every episode fits under one gentle truth: God has been stripping, simplifying, strengthening, and re-ordering.

This season isn’t about doing more. It’s about seeing clearly.

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Have you ever said “yes” to something just because it felt good? Same here. I used to make big life decisions based on that warm, peaceful feeling and call it confirmation. But over time, I learned that following God isn’t always about the feelings—it’s about faith, obedience, and listening for His voice in deeper ways.

In this episode, I share a personal story about how I almost said yes to an opportunity that looked perfect on paper—but instead, God took me on a journey of prayer, discernment, surrender, and clarity. I walk you through the steps I’ve learned to take when making big decisions—from praying alone to seeking wise counsel, waiting in stillness, and asking God to search my heart.

This one’s for you if you’re in a season of “should I or shouldn’t I?”, if the old ways of “feeling led” aren’t quite working anymore, or if you’re learning to trust God with your yes and your no.

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Real-life rhythms, chore strategies, and sanity-saving systems from a homeschooling mama of 5.

Let’s be real—keeping a household running, homeschooling the kids, and keeping everyone fed (without losing your mind) requires more than just a good planner. In this episode, I’m opening up our real-life mama systems: the chore rhythms, life skills training, tech boundaries, and daily routines that have actually helped our family thrive—not just survive.

You’ll hear how we’ve:

• Taught our kids independence (yes, they can do laundry and cook!)
• Shifted from reward systems to responsibility mindsets
• Built chore routines that don’t cause daily arguments
• Managed electronics in a way that honors their growth and our peace
• Created rhythms that invite rest, structure, and more Jesus into our days

Whether you’re overwhelmed by dishes, drowning in socks, or just curious how another mama makes it work—this episode is here to encourage you with practical ideas (and a whole lot of grace).

🔁 Because what works for one family won’t work for all… but sometimes, hearing someone else’s “working messy” helps you find your own.

If you want to learn how to embrace the Dirt on your journey, come join me over on Substack at kawailani.substack.com

If you want to learn how to embrace the Dirt on your journey, come join me over on Substack at kawailani.substack.com

Feeling behind? Burnt out? Like the stack of curriculum you bought is staring you down with judgmental eyes?

Been there, mama. 🙋🏽‍♀️

In this episode of Dreams, Dirt & Grace, we’re talking about the moment when your beautiful, color-coded homeschool plan falls apart—and what to do next. I’m sharing real stories, honest struggles, and what I’ve learned about making curriculum serve us, not the other way around.

You’ll walk away with encouragement, practical mindset shifts, and a whole lot of grace for those "we're behind again!" days.

✨ Because curriculum is a tool—not your taskmaster. And you, mama, are the teacher God chose.

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In this episode, we’re diving into the real-life mess and magic of homeschooling. Whether you're knee-deep in lesson plans, wondering if you're "doing it right," or just trying to survive another day without someone crying over math (and it might be you), this one’s for you.

We’ll talk about:

• How to simplify your homeschool rhythm
• What to do when you feel burnt out
• Why joy and curiosity matter more than a perfect curriculum
• How to invite God into your homeschool planning (without needing a seminary degree)
• And real-life tips from our own family’s homestead-homeschool mash-up

By the end, I hope you feel encouraged, grounded, and reminded that your homeschool doesn’t need to look like anyone else’s. Because your family, your story, and your pace is part of God's perfect plan.

If you want to learn how to embrace the Dirt on your journey, come join me over on Substack at kawailani.substack.com

Ever wonder if all this staying home, pouring out, and homeschooling is really worth it?

In this honest episode, I’m sharing a moment where I almost walked away from the calling—and what helped me stay rooted. We’ll talk about the tug-of-war between purpose and pressure, and how God reminded me that this season of motherhood matters deeply.

Takeaways:

• Doubt doesn’t mean you’re not called.

• Obedience sometimes looks like staying.

• Your faithfulness at home is kingdom work.

For the mama who feels tired, torn, or tempted to chase something else—this one’s for you.

If you want to learn how to embrace the Dirt on your journey, come join me over on Substack at kawailani.substack.com