Saturn Returns! Motherhood! Rage!

In this episode I sit down with writer, astrologer, and mystic Ayu Sutriasa for a raw conversation about Saturn returns, motherhood, identity collapse, creativity, and grounded spirituality.

Ayu shares her winding path with mysticism — growing up between cultures, spiritual lineages, and academic inquiry — and how studying mysticism through a critical, scholarly lens helped her dissolve binaries around “good vs bad,” spirituality vs politics, and transcendence vs embodiment.

Together, Leah and Ayu explore what it really means to live your spirituality in the material world, especially through the threshold experiences of Saturn return, postpartum identity shifts, and becoming responsible for your gifts.

Topics we cover:

• Postpartum depression, rage, and grief

• The identity death that comes with motherhood and Saturn return

• Reclaiming creativity after burnout, loss, or life upheaval

• Using astrology, ritual, and writing as survival tools

• Why responsibility can become agency — not a burden

• Reconnecting with your inner child as a creative muse

• Saturn Return astrology

If you’ve ever felt like you were walking through a void, shedding old versions of yourself, or trying to find solid ground after everything changed — this conversation will meet you there.

More about Ayu

Ayu Sutriasa is an archetypal astrologer, tarot reader, writer, and creative midwife. She works with creatives, artists, writers, and business owners to hone their vision, build self-trust, and actually finish their creative projects.

Combining her six years of magazine editing experience with her knowledge of astrology and mysticism, Ayu’s mission is to support her clients in reclaiming their creative genius and reimagining their relationship with possibility.

She’s known for her Creative Archetype reading, which is a total immersion into your kaleidoscopic creative energy using your natal chart and divination. When she’s not working, she’s hanging out with her 3 year-old, reading smutty fantasy books, or dancing to BTS.

Links for Ayu:

• Join Ayu on Jan. 22nd for a FREE writing workshop where you’ll learn how to turn your 2026 vision + goals into prophecy. Come as you are, channel your inner oracle, and connect with other visionary creatives. Reserve your spot here.

• Signature: Creative Archetype reading

• Website astralpathways.co

• Substack: Astral Pathways

• Podcast: Crybaby Mystic

• Instagram: @astralpathways

Links for Leah:

• Cosmic Style Alchemy

• Next Era Reading

Messy girls have more fun.

2026 marks a major turning point in astrology, culture, and personal style.

Today we’re breaking down the long-term planetary transits that will shape how we lead, create, dress, and define ourselves in the years ahead.

2026 Cultural & Style Themes:

The decline of pop astrology & guru culture
Neptune and Saturn in Aries push us away from flattened, meme-ified spirituality and toward personal truth, embodied leadership, and chart-specific wisdom.

Messy girl, elevated chaos & maximalism
The “clean girl” aesthetic continues to fade with the South Node in Virgo and as Leo, Aquarius, and Aries energy usher in imperfect beauty, glamorati vibes, indie sleaze nostalgia, and expressive excess.

Jupiter in Leo style energy

It’s giving: bold accessories, costume jewelry, gold, drama, play, and flirtation with visibility.

Healing validation-seeking while reclaiming authentic self-expression.

Aquarius + Uranus influence

Think: Glitchy glam, asymmetry, eccentric makeup, and mismatched styling.

Ice blues, electric blues, futuristic tones, customization, and resistance to sameness.

Revolutionary & military references
Pluto and the North Node in Aquarius echo historic revolutions — think military jackets, camo callbacks, structured silhouettes, and symbolic rebellion in fashion.

Color as resistance
Dopamine dressing, bold primaries, and expressive color palettes as a rejection of sterile minimalism and conformity.

Ultimately, It's about personal style expression over trends

2026 is about becoming your own style authority.

With Saturn and Neptune in Aries, personal style becomes a tool for identity, courage, and self-trust. Secondhand shopping, thrifting, accessories, customization, and intuitive dressing replace rigid trend cycles and algorithm-driven aesthetics.

Links:

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An Energetic Syllabus for 2026

Abundance is a disciple, not a desire

My 2026 Trends Pinterest Board

In this solo episode, I”m digging into a personal experiment that I’m doing to start showing up as my most iconic self and how you can do it too.

Rather than manifesting from desire alone, this practice focuses on embodiment, sensation, and daily habits that align with the version of you who already has what you want.

This episode explores how to work with seasonal energy, emotional capacity, and self-trust during liminal times — including 2025 astrology, a Sagittarius New Moon, and the Capricorn solstice.

In this episode:

• Solstice rituals and solar magic practices
• The Astro Weather report for the week
• What it really means to become your “iconic self”
• Working with collective change cycles (2025 → 2026)
• Numbing out blocking intuition as much as fear
• Pleasure, presence, and capacity as prerequisites for expansion
• Glamour magic and aesthetic embodiment
• Identity shifts through motherhood and life transitions
• Dopamine detoxing, nervous system capacity, and presence
• Breathwork, EFT tapping, somatic release & intuition
• How to turn your life into a living spell
• Tracking expansion evidence and celebrating micro-wins

Check out my offerings and get a reading: leahvanderveldt.com

Go to the Substack post for this episode to see the experiment outline.

In this episode, I’m joined by Natasha Levinger, a therapeutic intuitive, energy healer, and teacher, to explore the deep connection between inner child healing, psychic development, intuition, and self-trust.

Natasha shares her unconventional journey from performer and comedy writer to intuitive healer, and how psychic tools, energy work, and inner child healing became anchors during major life transitions.

We talk about why so many intuitive blocks actually originate in the inner child, how creativity and mysticism are deeply linked, and why intuition is not a “special gift,” but a birthright.

If you’re curious about developing intuition without losing discernment, healing through compassion rather than force, or integrating astrology, psychic awareness, and inner child work in a grounded way, this episode is for you.

Topics we cover:

• Inner child healing as the foundation of spiritual and personal growth
• Psychic development as a practical, everyday skill
• Why intuition is learned through practice, not perfection
• Creativity, performance, and the creative brain to mystic pipeline
• Energy boundaries, ethics, and consent in psychic readings
• Multiple timelines, free will, and why the future isn’t fixed
• Re-parenting yourself through compassion rather than self-pressure
• Resistance, parts work, and why healing doesn’t require reliving memories
• Astrology as a tool for nourishment, self-trust, and care (Moon, 8th & 12th houses)
• What intuitive information actually feels like (clairsentience, claircognizance, clairvoyance)

Links for Natasha:

• Natasha’s website
• Natasha’s book: Healing Your Inner Child
• Podcast: Crystal Ballers
• Natasha’s Substack

Links from Leah:

1. Cosmic Timing Transit Reading

It’s timing that helps you stop second-guessing and start moving with the current instead of against it.

2. Your Next Era Mini Reading

A combo of astrology, human design, and intuition to show you your next chapter and what makes you iconic.

3. Tarot Constellation

Your intuitive check-in— a vibe map that reads the room of your life. This spread lays out the patterns, pressures, and pockets of magic shaping your present and future.

Today we explore the energy of 2026 through the tarot lens — moving from 2025’s introspective Hermit Year into the expansive, fate-turning Wheel of Fortune Year.

We also dig into this week’s astrology forecast, including one of the most intense lunations of the year: the Full Moon in Gemini.

Expect unhinged clarity, spirals, and breakthroughs. Plus: Mercury trines, Mars-Saturn tension, Neptune stationing direct, and major spiritual shifts.

In this episode:

• 2026 as a Wheel of Fortune Year
• Why 2026 carries massive pivot energy
• How the Wheel of Fortune shifts your direction, identity, and expansion
• Cchanges from the 2025 Hermit Year
• How to work with the ups and downs, changes, and your integrity in a Wheel of Fortune year
• What the Magician can teach us as our teacher in a WoF year

• Plus the astro weather for this week

LINKS:

Your Next Era Mini Reading

A potent 25 minute reading blending astrology, human design, and intuition to show you your next chapter and what makes you iconic.

- Your next-era themes/themes of 202

- How to tune into your intuition and self-trust on a somatic leve

- A sense of direction based on your energy and your chart

Birth Chart Deep Dive + Cosmic Timing Readings

Book mentioned: Archetypal Tarot by Mary K Greer

Article mentioned: Jeff Hinshaw Cosmic Cousins: How to Navigate Neptune’s Final Turn in Pisces

Today I’m sitting down with Kate Van Horn, an intuitive reader, spiritual mentor, author of The Inner Tarot, and feng shui consultant

We get into how our inner energy reflects in our outer spaces, and how to bring harmony between the two.

Kate shares how her journey from yoga teacher and wellness event creator to psychic reader and feng shui practitioner helped her discover new ways to connect intuition, embodiment, and design.

She opens up about her Capricorn Sun, Gemini Moon, and Virgo Rising placements and how her earthy yet curious nature informs her spiritual work.

In this episode:

• The connection between tarot, embodiment, and everyday magic

• Practical ways to clear stagnant energy and invite creativity back in

• Uncovering and leaning into you “signatures”

• Using your body’s intuitive cues to make aligned choices

• What it means to feel “at home” — wherever you are in the world

• Kate’s reflections on her travels through Copenhagen and Europe, and how travel reshaped her relationship with home and inspiration

Connect with Kate:

Website: Kate Van Horn

Substack: Intuitive Living

Book: The Inner Tarot

Instagram: @kate.van.horn

Connect with Leah:

Website: leahvanderveldt.com

Instagram: ⁠@leah.vanderveldt

Book a Your Next Era Mini Reading

In this conversation with healer, astrologer and Human Design reader Sanpriti Ireland we explore how astrology maps our cosmic design while Human Design anchors that wisdom into the body.

Together, they create a dialogue between the stars and our cells, between cosmic blueprint and somatic truth.

Human Design teaches that authority lives in the body and that clarity usually doesn’t come from thinking more, but from feeling.

Astrology offers language and myth to understand those patterns, while Human Design gives us the mechanism to live them.

When we start embodying this awareness, we move from theory into presence — from self-knowledge into self-trust.

This is where embodiment becomes the bridge: learning to listen to our sacral “yes,” to feel our spleen’s whispers of fear or intuition, to notice frustration or satisfaction not as judgment but as guidance.

And that’s also where pleasure comes in — not as indulgence, but as regulation, aliveness, and truth.

Pleasure, comfort, and joy become portals back to the body — the same body that carries our design and holds our cosmic instructions.

As Sanpriti says, “Our bodies are never giving us anything that isn’t good for us — it might just be out of balance, or the right thing at the wrong time.”

Astrology reveals the pattern.
Human Design shows the process.
Embodiment is the practice.

Together, they bring us home to the harmony of being human and divine.

ABOUT SANPRITI:

Sanpriti Ireland is a healer, astrologer, and the creator of Human Design and Stuff, where she weaves together Human Design, astrology, nervous system awareness, and embodiment to help people live in deeper harmony with their energy.

With a background as an emergency nurse and a personal journey through chronic illness and burnout, Sanpriti brings grounded, compassionate insight to the healing process — blending science and spirit, cosmos and body.

Her work centers on self-trust, energy literacy, and remembering the wisdom of your design.

• Website: astrogeomantica.net

• Patreon

• • TikTok

  
  

  And as always, you can find Leah at:

  • Website: LeahVanderveldt.com

  • Instagram: @leah.vanderveldt

  • Substack

  
  

The astrology of motivation, drive, and what you can't stand.

Today we’re diving deep into Mars — the planet of motivation, drive, and embodied action.

Mars gets a bad rap as the planet of war, anger, or aggression. But really, Mars is your inner fire — your energy source, your spark, your passion, and your ability to go after what you want.

In this ep, we unpack how Mars shows you:

• What fuels your motivation and keeps you moving forward

• Where in your chart action, courage, and frustration live

• Why your Mars placement reveals your leadership style (and what drives your work life)

• How to channel your Mars energy into your body through movement, ritual, and embodiment practices

You’ll also hear:

• Leah’s personal story of healing her relationship with anger and learning to express Mars energy consciously

• A breakdown of Mars through the houses — from the Self-Starter (1st house) to the Mystical Surrenderer (12th house) — and how each placement reveals what lights you up and how to move your energy

This episode will help you reconnect with your drive, find your natural rhythm of action, and use frustration as fuel for growth instead of burnout.

Connect + Book a Reading

If you’ve been craving clarity, alignment, or that sense that something’s finally clicking — your chart holds the key.
Book your astrology reading with me at leahvanderveldt.com and step into your next era.