I REALLY want to explain. I feel a passionate need to apologise. Perhaps you do too.

Here is the story of my first admission to a psychiatric ward in a hospital. This was when I was still undiagnosed as autistic. In fact, at that time, I was MISdiagnosed as Bipolar which is a common occurrence. I recommend it highly.

This one is about friendship. We all lose friends. As an autistic person, making friends is difficult. Losing them is easy. It's easy to be irritable. It's easy to be 'difficult'. This is all true, but cut me slack, and I think good friends should cut each other slack.

For everyone, life is a process. We have experiences and they shape us. If we reflect on those experiences and the changes they have wrought, we have the opportunity for 'growth'. I am not the person I was 40, 20, 10, or even 5 years ago. Hopefully, I am a better man.

Trigger warning: Bullying

As an autistic young person, I was constantly bullied thanks to my standing out in small but but subtle ways. In this episode, I detail my own experience and its resulting scars.

Here, we look at my professional life as a teacher. Also, spirituality and my wandering through that is mentioned. Beginning family life. Depression. Trouble.

The story of the beginning of my teaching life. There is a lot of crying. From me.

A discussion about CPTSD and the flawed reactions and beliefs that it caused in me. There is help with therapy and I recommend it.