This one came out of nowhere on a Sunday morning. Unedited. No plan. Just something I needed to say.

I've been thinking a lot lately about how much the people we surround ourselves with — our friends, our partners, the people we're dating, the people we share energy with — directly impact our creativity, our confidence, and our ability to show up as ourselves.

I get into why love bombing isn't malicious, it's just someone who doesn't know how to fill their own cup. What it actually feels like when someone is pulling at your energy field. Why I stopped giving people more chances than my gut was giving them. The conversation I had with my dad on his birthday that confirmed everything I'd been feeling about the kind of partner I actually need. And why if you have a purpose bigger than yourself, you cannot afford to keep surrounding yourself with people who are abandoning their own.

This is the Sunday Sabi Show — unhinged, unedited, and exactly what I needed to get off my chest.

Everyone online is telling you the old you has to die.

New identity. New era. Kill off who you were. Become someone else.

In this episode I'm calling that out — because I think it's one of the most dangerous things being taught right now, and I think a lot of people in the spiritual and self development space are using it as a way to keep you dependent on them instead of yourself.

The truth is your shadow self, the parts of you that you've been told are too much, too messy, too dark, too complicated — those aren't things to kill off. They're the parts of you that got you here. They're your deepest allies. And the moment you start integrating them instead of suppressing them is the moment you actually step into who you are.

This one gets personal. Really personal.

In this solo episode I'm getting into something nobody talks about honestly — the direct link between pleasure, desire, sensuality and your ability to express yourself, create freely and take up space in the world.

I share my own story with this. Growing up in a strict, culturally conditioned household where freedom was always conditional. My first love at 16 and the moment I learned that being seen and desired meant someone would eventually leave. The relationships that followed — the emotionally unavailable ones, the abusive ones, the codependent ones — and what every single one of them was actually mirroring back to me about where I was abandoning myself. My two and a half years of celibacy by choice, and the intentional decision I made to break it because I finally found someone safe enough to do so with.

And then I connect all of it to creativity. Because your creative power lives in your sacral. And when you're shaming yourself out of desire, out of pleasure, out of connection — you're shaming yourself out of your art too.