In Episode 7, we share one of the hardest parts of our story, the passing of our son, Koleson.

We talk about those final moments, the emotions, the questions, the heartbreak, and what it was like to say goodbye to our little boy after fighting alongside him for 4½ years.

This is a story we never wanted to have to tell, but it’s a story that deserves to be told.

Through the pain, we continue to look for God’s presence, His peace, and the purpose He can bring even from the moments that hurt the most.

If you’ve experienced loss, grief, or simply need a reminder that you’re not alone, we hope this episode speaks to you.

Koleson’s story didn’t end on January 3rd, 2026. His impact continues!

In this episode of Light in the Rain, we talk about one of the hardest seasons of our lives: 2025.

As Koleson’s body became weaker and everyday life became harder for him, we watched his world slowly change. Things that once came easily became difficult. His body was struggling, and as his parents, we were watching it happen while desperately wishing we could take it all away.

2 Corinthians 4:8–9 says:

“We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed.”

Those words became incredibly real for us.

Koleson was hard pressed. His body was failing him. Our family was exhausted, scared, and hurting. There were moments when we didn't understand what God was doing or why he was allowing so much suffering.

But even in the hardest moments, we were not abandoned.

This episode is about what it looks like to hold onto God when your circumstances keep getting harder. It's about watching someone you love struggle and learning that faith doesn't mean you won't hurt, it means you don't have to walk through the hurt alone.

Koleson's story continues to teach us that being struck down isn't the same as being destroyed. And sometimes, God's presence isn't found in changing the circumstance, but in carrying us through it.

If you're going through a season where you feel hard pressed, overwhelmed, or completely exhausted, we hope this episode reminds you that you are not alone.

In this episode, we share how we wrestled with adaptation and the reality that life didn’t unfold the way we hoped. While God didn’t change our circumstances the way we prayed he would, He changed our hearts, strengthened our faith, and carried us through our darkest days.

What if God is doing isn’t changing your circumstances because he wants to change you to handle those circumstances?

If you’ve ever questioned God’s plan, wondered where he is in your pain, or struggled to trust him when life doesn’t make sense, this conversation is for you. We pray our story reminds you that even when you can’t see him working, God is still present, still faithful, and still transforming lives.

Key Scripture: James 1:2–4