I recorded four or five different podcast episodes this week and hated every single one. Not because I had nothing to say, but because something in me was telling me to stop producing long enough to pay attention.

After working through my own journal prompts for a breathwork workshop, dropping into my body and creating some actual space, I could suddenly see just how much I've been carrying .... content, clients, relationships, other people's needs, unanswered messages, the pressure to stay relevant, and the expectation that because I've built the capacity to hold a lot, I should.

This episode is a lil vulnerable, real-time look at burnout, nervous system regulation, over-responsibility, self-care, capacity and the discomfort of making space without immediately filling it again. I'm questioning whether some of the practices that have made me incredibly resilient have also allowed me to tolerate a level of load I no longer want to carry.

What happens when you're capable of doing it all, but you're no longer sure you want to?

What stays? What has run its course? What was never yours to carry in the first place? And can you let there be space before rushing to decide what comes next?

Episode 99 isn't a neat lesson from the other side. I'm right in the middle of it ... discerning, refining, carrying less and trusting that I don't need to know yet exactly what fills the space I'm creating.

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