After years of unravelling inherited belief systems, questioning authority, and prying spirituality out of the grip of shame, she finds herself back in conversation with Catholicism.

What we cover in this episode:
✝️ Kyley’s complicated return to Catholicism and what “return” actually means here
🕯️ Ritual, repetition, and why the body remembers faith even when the mind resists it
🌀 Leaving a religion without leaving the parts that shaped you
🔥 Spiritual rebellion, authority wounds, and the long shadow of shame
🤍 Grief, belonging, and the tenderness of being spiritually homeless
🗝️ Letting spirituality be messy, unresolved, and deeply personal

If you’ve ever felt spiritually in-between or you’ve ever missed something you thought you were done with, this one's for you!

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In this episode of Hello Universe, Kyley and Eva wade unpack how victim consciousness can form as a protective response to real harm, heartbreak, overwhelm, and unmet needs and how it can quietly harden into an identity that keeps us stuck, depleted, and disconnected from our power.

This conversation is not about bypassing pain, minimizing trauma, or pretending hard things didn’t happen. Quite the opposite. Kyley and Eva explore how victim consciousness often arises when pain hasn’t been fully felt, witnessed, or metabolized. They talk candidly about resentment, self-pity, martyrdom, righteous anger, and the strange comfort that can come from staying “right” and wronged.

This is a conversation for anyone who has ever felt stuck in resentment, helplessness, or “why me?” energy, and also for anyone who is afraid to fully feel their anger, grief, or longing.

What we cover in this episode:

🌀 What victim consciousness actually is and how it differs from experiencing real harm
🧠 How victim identity can form as a protective response to unwitnessed pain
🔥 The difference between liberating anger and anger that keeps us stuck
💔 Self-pity, martyrdom, resentment, and the “I’ve done everything right” trap
🧍‍♀️ How victim consciousness feels in the body and why somatic awareness matters
🛁 The “warm bath” of victimhood and why it can feel so hard to leave
👶 Parenting, inner children, and the role of allowed emotional expression
🌱 Reclaiming power without bypassing grief, vulnerability, or reality

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What does it really means to give yourself permission to be a messy b*tch—especially in the places where it feels hardest.

Sparked by Eva being back in Taiwan with her family, this conversation explores what happens when all your tools fly out the window, ten years of therapy evaporate at the front door, and you’re left face-to-face with old patterns, big feelings, and the relentless voice that says you should know better by now.

This episode is for anyone heading into family gatherings, relational landmines, or inner winters where things feel messy or unresolved and are looking to experiment with a different approach: letting yourself be imperfect, uncontained, and human.

What we cover in this episode:

✨ Giving yourself permission to be a “messy b*tch” without bypassing responsibility
🧠 The shame spiral of “I should know better” and why it’s so common in spiritual and personal development spaces
🏠 What happens to your nervous system when you’re back with family—and why your tools might temporarily disappear
🧩 How perfectionism often forms as protection against shame
🌀 The myth of a “perfect self” and the exhaustion of endless self-improvement
⚖️ Accountability vs. punishment: why guilt doesn’t actually help us change "
💔 The subtle ways we weaponize spiritual insights against ourselves
🔓 Releasing self-policing and noticing how inner violence fuels outer conflict
🌱 Why compassion creates more real change than criticism ever could
🕊️ Exploring innocence—not just in others, but in yourself
🔥 The fear and grief that arise when old identities start to dissolve
🤍 Touching unconditional love and why it can feel unfamiliar, fleeting, or even scary



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Torchbearer Workshop with Kyley
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Eva's instagram: @iamevaliao
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Kyley's Instagram: @kyleycaldwell
Kyley's free mini-course