Hello 2026, I’m back, and I’m back for good. In this Week 1 episode of 52 Weeks to Your Diamond Self, I’m naming what I believe trauma actually is: when your free will is taken from you, psychologically, spiritually, and emotionally. From the personal portals of perimenopause and menopause, to the collective rupture many of us felt after 2020, this is about reclaiming your inner authority and restoring the “factory settings” of your real self. This year is about healing with love, grace, humor, and art, and moving forward in the light, not living in triage forever.

In this episode, you’ll learn Why 2025 felt like a massive shedding, and how that can become rebirth A clear definition of trauma as “loss of free will,” and how it shows up in your life The core conflict behind so much suffering: power vs love, dominance vs submission The 8 “Crazy Eight” trauma patterns that hijack your life and relationships How to start telling the truth to yourself without self-attack, shame, or spiritual bypassing

Week 1 homework (do this with me) Grab a journal and a white canvas, then answer these 8 prompts with radical honesty:

Where am I addicted to control?

What am I pretending about, or pretending not to know?

What or who am I desperately trying to fix?

Where am I overpleasing?

Where is perfectionism running my life?

Who am I victimizing, or holding to an impossible standard?

Where am I lashing out, or holding someone hostage?

What am I withholding, from others or from myself?

Weekly schedule Wednesdays at 7 PM: New episode drop Sundays (Live): Weekly recap, community, teaching, and Q&A If you’re ready to come back to your true self and rebuild your life from the inside out, start here.

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Join me on a raw, soul-baring journey from renouncing Jesus to rediscovering Him through shamanic spirit work, personal upheaval, and a post-menopausal awakening that shattered shame and revealed her true “diamond tree” nature. Dive deep into interdependence, spiritual rebirth, and radical self-reclamation. Discover the power of writing your own story,starting today. Learn more at www.HeidiRain.com. Reclaim your soul. Rewrite your story. Connect with Heidi at www.HeidiRain.com #HeidiRain #DiamondSoul #PostMenopausalAwakening #SpiritualRebirth #TraumaHealing #SoulRecovery #JesusJourney #MaryMagdaleneWisdom #Interdependence #LifeAfter50 #HealingJourney #ShamanicHealing #FaithTransformation #RewriteYourStory #NewBeginnings

I’m back. Honestly, I don’t even know how I made it back alive, but here I am. What I’m coming back from is a full-blown meltdown that started on Mother’s Day and ended today—exactly 133 days later. When I look at that window of time, I’m actually impressed I survived it . For over a decade on YouTube, I’ve shown up every single week teaching about addiction—how to handle it, what to say, how to set boundaries, and how to navigate someone else’s dysfunction. I loved doing that for a long time. But behind the scenes, while I was helping others, something was happening to me. I was walking my own recovery path—from binge eating, binge drinking, and various self-sabotaging behaviors—and I shared those struggles publicly. I even created the “Love Yourself First Empowerment School” to help people heal from toxic relationships. And I was good at it. I dedicated my life to helping people speak their truth. But here’s the thing—I’m not here to tell you about yourself anymore or about the people in your life. Menopause cracked me open. It wasn’t a gentle awakening; it was a tunnel through hell. Over the past year and a half, I stripped away all the illusions—who I thought I was, what I believed I was here to do, how I showed up, even my own story around addiction. And on the other side, I came out raw, real, and unmasked.

What I discovered in these last 133 days is that my root addiction is love addiction. I was addicted to what everyone else needed, to their opinions, to a false self I built out of survival. That false identity drove me into all my other addictions—alcohol, food, toxic relationships, bad choices, self-betrayal, self-rejection, and self-denial. From now on, this channel is going to be about two things: my personal journey with love addiction, and how it’s shown up in every area of my life. I’m here for self-responsibility, for digging up buried treasure within, and for breaking through the blocks that keep us from living as our truest selves.

Learn more and join the journey at www.HeidiRain.com

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