In this week’s episode of The Sunnydale Diaries, we dive into Buffy the Vampire Slayer Season 5, Episode 4: “Out of My Mind", an episode packed with insecurity, power struggles, and what happens when love starts to feel like a competition.

As Buffy juggles slaying, school, and a boyfriend who desperately wants to prove he can “keep up,” Riley’s unraveling takes center stage, raising big questions about masculinity, vulnerability, and why asking for help can feel like failure. Meanwhile, Spike teams up with Harmony (badly), Dawn continues being…Dawn, and Joyce has a scary experience that sends her to the ER.

Because this episode drops during Valentine’s week, we take a detour into our own relationship stories: sweet, awkward, dramatic, and occasionally mortifying. From early relationship grand gestures to being aggressively friend-zoned, middle-school Valentine pressure, and one truly chaotic bouquet of roses, we unpack how love, insecurity, and timing collide both in Sunnydale and real life.

It’s an episode about feeling “less than,” trying too hard, and learning that strength doesn’t always look the way you expect. Also: Dawson’s Creek, fancy stakes, lavender outfits, and at least one masterclass in bad decision-making. Grab your heart-shaped chocolates and join us.

What if someone else could step into your life… and do it better than you ever have?

In this episode of The Sunnydale Diaries, Sean and Melanie take on Buffy the Vampire Slayer Season 5, Episode 3, 'The Replacement,' an episode that starts as a classic body-split gag and quietly turns into one of the most heartbreaking looks at self-worth the show has ever done.

As Xander is magically divided into two versions of himself, one confident, capable, and successful, the other insecure and falling apart, we talk about what it feels like to believe you’re disposable. The version of yourself that always comes up short. The fear that someone else could replace you at work, in relationships, or in life entirely…and no one would notice.

Along the way, we unpack Xander and Anya’s very adult struggles with money, housing, and timelines you feel pressured to meet before life passes you by. We also talk about our first apartments, crappy rentals, terrifying deposits, and the strange pride that comes with finally making a place your own, even when you’re not sure you deserve it yet.

There’s also a demon with a glowing stick, an aggressively flirty leasing agent, Spike doing Spike things, and one devastating line that perfectly captures Xander’s internal monologue: “I’m just another great humiliation.”

“The Replacement” reminds us that confidence and competence aren’t separate people. They’re parts of us we don’t always know how to access. And sometimes the real fight isn’t with a demon… it’s learning to believe you’re enough as you are.

Buffy has a sister. She’s always had a sister. And apparently… we just never noticed. No big whoop.

In this episode of The Sunnydale Diaries, Sean and Melanie dive into Buffy the Vampire Slayer Season 5, Episode 2, “Real Me,” an episode all about sibling: annoying siblings, protective siblings, and the complicated, lifelong bond that somehow survives childhood chaos.

As Dawn steps into the spotlight (and immediately gets on Buffy's nerves), we unpack what it really means to be the younger sibling living in someone else’s shadow—and what it’s like to suddenly be expected to protect someone when you’re barely holding things together yourself. Along the way, Sean and Melanie share their own very real sibling stories: favoritism, slap fights, broken bones, resentment, reconciliation, and the strange way adulthood can heal what childhood broke.

We also talk vampire Harmony’s glow-up as a Big Bad (kind of), Giles’s suspiciously fancy new car, Dawn’s diary angst, and follow up to our "no big whoop" conversation from last episode.

From diary confessions to magic-shop murder, “Real Me” proves that sibling drama might be the most dangerous thing on the Hellmouth—and that love, irritation, and loyalty are often all tangled together.

Grab your journal, hide your milk, and join us as we ask: who does get to be the favorite, anyway?