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Fear Can Come Along, But It Doesn't Get to Drive

What does healing really look like when you live with anxiety, PTSD, and social anxiety?

For me, it doesn't mean the fear has disappeared. It means I'm learning that fear can come along for the ride—but it doesn't get to drive anymore.

In this deeply personal episode of The Message in the Mess, I'm sharing what happened when a motorcycle trip to Colorado brought the trauma of witnessing the loss of our friend rushing back, and how getting back on the bike required a kind of courage I wasn't sure I had.

Then came Sturgis.

Long motorcycle rides. Thousands of people. Crowded places. Unfamiliar roads. New experiences. And even a helicopter ride!

The woman who once felt constantly on high alert suddenly realized something had changed.

I had changed.

Not because my anxiety or PTSD magically disappeared, but because I've built a toolbox that helps me find my way back when fear takes over.

I'm sharing the grounding techniques that help me during panic, the importance of therapy and finding the right therapist, why there should be zero shame around appropriately prescribed medication, the support I've received from my husband, and what I'm learning about being patient with myself through the healing process.

After twelve years of healing from domestic violence and more than three years since witnessing a devastating motorcycle tragedy, I've learned that a trigger doesn't erase your progress. A flashback doesn't mean you've failed. And having a difficult day doesn't put you back at the beginning.

Sometimes healing looks like recognizing the fear, reaching into your toolbox…and continuing anyway.

If you're struggling with anxiety, PTSD, social anxiety, or the aftermath of trauma, I hope this episode reminds you of one thing:

Your brave doesn't have to look like anyone else's brave.

Give yourself grace. Ask for help. Find the tools that work for you. And please don't stop living while you're waiting to feel completely healed.

Because even after our darkest moments, there can still be so much life waiting for us.

Fear can come along for the ride. But it doesn't get to drive anymore.

Content note: This episode includes discussion of domestic violence, PTSD, anxiety, and a fatal motorcycle accident.

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What happens when the people who once cared for us begin to need us in a different way?

In this deeply personal episode of The Message in the Mess, I’m sharing the journey Eric and I are beginning as we build a casita on our property for his parents. It’s a beautiful decision rooted in love—but it also comes with change, uncertainty, difficult conversations, and emotions we don’t always talk about.

We’ll explore what this transition can feel like for aging parents who may be grieving their home, possessions, independence, and the life they’ve always known—and what it feels like for the adult children trying to support them while also protecting their marriage, privacy, and emotional well-being.

We’ll talk honestly about healthy boundaries, downsizing with compassion, preserving dignity and independence, navigating changing family roles, and having the difficult conversations before a crisis forces us to.

Most importantly, we’ll talk about making room—not just in our homes, but in our hearts.

Because maybe this season isn’t simply about caregiving. Maybe it’s about the gift of more ordinary Tuesdays, coffee on the porch, family dinners, stories we’ve heard a hundred times, and precious time together that we may someday wish we could have back.

If you’re caring for aging parents, preparing for this transition, or wondering what the next chapter might look like for your family, this episode is for you.

Making Room: Loving Our Parents Through Life’s Biggest Transition is a conversation about love, dignity, boundaries, faith, grace—and learning how to walk one another home through every season of life.

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Today on The Message in the Mess, I'm talking about surviving a toxic work environment and finding the courage to walk away.

For a long time, I questioned whether I should even talk about this topic. I never want to come across as bitter or stuck in the past. But the truth is, there are so many people who wake up every morning with anxiety because of where they work. People who sit in their cars before work trying to gather the strength to walk through the door. People who have slowly begun to question their worth because of the environment they are in.

I've learned that toxic workplaces don't always look toxic from the outside. Sometimes they have great missions, great people, and great intentions. But when communication breaks down, accountability is missing, fear replaces trust, and leadership refuses to listen, even the best employees can find themselves struggling.

One of the things I talk about in this episode is how easy it is to lose yourself in a toxic environment. You start second-guessing yourself. You take work stress home. You begin carrying burdens that were never yours to carry. Before long, you're surviving instead of thriving.

I also share what I've learned about loyalty, boundaries, leadership, and self-worth. Sometimes we stay too long because we care. We hope things will improve. We believe we can help fix what's broken. But I've learned that you cannot heal a culture that isn't willing to acknowledge there's a problem.

Most importantly, I talk about what walking away can teach us. That our worth is not tied to a title. That peace matters. That sometimes God closes doors we desperately wanted to keep open because He has something different planned for us.

If you're currently struggling in a workplace that is affecting your mental, emotional, or even physical health, I hope this episode reminds you that you are not weak, you are not crazy, and you are not alone.

Sometimes the bravest thing we can do is stay and fight. Sometimes the bravest thing we can do is walk away. The wisdom comes in knowing the difference.

As always, thank you for listening, supporting, and being part of this journey with me. ❤️

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