Dear Diary & Listeners,

There are a few moments that leave me truly speechless. There are fewer moments that leave me in an aftermath of tears.

Tonight, you get to experience one of those with me.

Welcome back to The Amanda Show I guess...

...but like

Be fucking nice to each other. For real.

xoxo,

Amanda

Hey Listeners,

This episode marks the beginning of a very different season.

In Season 1, you heard me, raw and unraveling, in the thick of it. But Season 2? We're zooming out. Years have passed for Ashley—and what you're about to hear isn’t someone cracking wide open in real-time... it’s someone flipping back through the chapters, trying to make sense of a story she was too busy surviving to process.

You’ll literally hear us flipping pages—yes, actual pages—as Ashley tries to recall the timeline of how it all went down. It’s a little chaotic, sometimes blurry, but that’s the point. Trauma doesn’t always leave behind a neat trail. And when your life becomes a series of pivots you never planned for? Sometimes you need a notebook just to remember how you got here.

Ashley opens up about the shame she felt in her first major relationship—the kind of shame no one prepares you for. The kind that makes you doubt yourself. That makes you feel like something’s off, but you stay anyway. Because life is happening fast. And motherhood doesn’t come with a pause button for healing.

This is the start of Ashley’s story. And while she might not fully realize how much pain still lingers... you will.

We’re not rushing through it. We’re honoring it. One page at a time.

Thanks for being here.

—Amanda Arnier, Your Host The Dichotomy Diaries

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Y'all....

Sometimes podcasting—especially when you're unpacking the darkest chapters of people’s lives—can really take a toll on you. Season 2 of The Dichotomy Diaries is locked and loaded, but let me be honest… prerecording everything, batching edits, and stepping away from the mic weekly? It messed me up more than I expected.

I thought I was being efficient. But in reality? It made it easier to disconnect. To avoid. To put it off.

So here’s my reset: Okay Hear Me Out is my way back to weekly mic time. Unfiltered, unscheduled, and a little unhinged.

Think Joe Rogan meets Theo Von—but with Midwest Feminine Energy and a lot more unpopular opinions (and maybe a little more sass).

Let’s talk. Weekly. Again.

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Ashley Klemm is a boudoir photographer, mother, and survivor who empowers women to feel their best in their own skin—both through her lens and her story. She’s known for capturing raw confidence and speaking her truth without a filter.

Ashley joins Amanda Arnier for the debut of Okay, Hear Me Out—talking toxic thought patterns, not-so-hot takes, and a whole lot of opposing viewpoints on modern dating, relationships, and everything in between.

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