Raw and unfiltered talks on Spiritual Awakening

Part 1 - Your have to stay motivated or none of it is going to work... 

Namaste everyone
my name is Billy
welcome to another Desert Soul podcast
today we're gonna talk about how to live your truest
life and get away with it
so as I mentioned often in my podcast
uh it's no secret we've all been programmed to think
feel believe in certain ways in our life
not all of those things are bad
sometimes people are programmed quite well
and it enables them to live their truest life
but for many people such as myself
I was programmed in trauma
I was programmed in false religion
I was programmed in fear
and these things created an image of myself
that I believed to be true
as a person who really couldn't be successful
a person that couldn't really be happy
so the first 28 years of my life
I existed as someone who was very anxious depressed
I was chasing after happiness
until I recognized one day that I did not like myself
and why was I against myself
and then it dawned on me
as if I was talking about two different entities
who is the eye
and who is the identity that is not light
what is this eye within me
this awareness this consciousness
I may not have used those words at that time
of that discovery
but what is this me that doesn't like this other me
and that's when I began to realize
and go down that rabbit hole of looking into
has anyone else ever felt this way
and if they have have they had any conclusive answers
and the more I went down this rabbit hole
the more I realized that I have had experiences
of being the oneness
experiences in my life
of being without that extra identity or ego
and that's when it all began to come together for me
that I had been programmed
by people who have also been programmed
in a way that had kept me in a box
that we might call identity for 28 years of my life
until I was able to see that that cloak
that thing that covered me
that I looked at in the mirror and I saw the thing
I did not see me
I saw the thing that I called me
until that cloak began to eventually crack
and I would see within those cracks the light the love
the consciousness that was within me
and eventually
pieces began to fall away
and I realized oh
I'm definitely not this
this was just a false identity that I assumed
and then another piece would fall away until eventually
it all fell away
and there you are