In this week's episode of Recovery Rising with Kelly and Reva, we share a deeply personal story about running, recovery, and redefining what it means to be “enough.”

Reva opens up about her journey with the Boston Marathon—qualifying during a relapse fueled by compulsive exercise, perfectionism, and the constant feeling of not being enough. What once felt like an accomplishment was rooted in pushing through injuries, illness, and a life structured entirely around running.

After deferring her Boston Marathon entry through pregnancy, this year marked her final opportunity to run. But instead of lacing up, she made the difficult and intentional decision not to participate.

Together, we explore what led to that choice—leaning on support systems, honoring recovery, and recognizing that healing sometimes means letting go of things we once held tightly.

This conversation dives into:

• Reclaiming movement in a way that feels joyful, flexible, and free
• The reality that even in strong recovery, certain environments or behaviors can still be triggering
• Letting go of external validation and redefining identity beyond achievements
• The grief that can come with releasing parts of your past, even the ones tied to your eating disorder
• Finding connection and community outside of performance

We also reflect on the idea that recovery looks different for everyone and sometimes, it requires making big, meaningful changes to fully heal.

This episode is a reminder that you are not defined by what you achieve, and choosing yourself *again and again* is something worth celebrating.