In this episode, host Stephan Bodian welcomes Zen teacher Ryushin Marchaj to discuss the intersection of psychedelics, Zen meditation, and nondual awakening. Ryushin shares his personal spiritual trajectory, from childhood insight into the mystery of time and experience to over two decades in intense practice and teaching at Zen Mountain Monastery.

The conversation shifts to plant medicine and Ryushin’s more than a dozen years exploring ayahuasca, as he explains that he approaches it not to seek altered states, but to uncover a "non-altered", natural state of consciousness that mirrors the nondual essence of everyday reality. He frames ayahuasca as a radical non-human form of intelligence that demands absolute surrender and dismantles the egoic illusion of a voluntary "letting go" by instead requiring a deep relaxation into the present moment.

Ultimately, both teachers emphasize that spiritual realization—whether accessed through the rigorous discipline of Zen koans, deep meditation, or sacred medicines—is fundamentally about reclaiming our innate intimacy with the world to live in service and connection to all beings.

In this episode, host Stephan Bodian and psychotherapist, author, and spiritual teacher John Prendergast reflect on their shared journey under the guidance of Advaita master Jean Klein and spiritual teacher Adyashanti.

Grounding the dialogue in their personal experience, they highlight how a true teacher serves as an essential catalyst for realization—not by acting as an authority figure, but by embodying an egoless presence that silences and frees the seeking mind.

The conversation delves into the differences in their respective teaching modalities and ways of knowing, contrasting Stephan’s unmediated, direct knowing with John’s subtle somatic resonance approach, and illustrating how a practitioner can use the felt senses of the body to distinguish between authentic knowing and egoic doubt.

They explore the core paradoxes of the non-dual path, particularly the relationship between the absolute ocean of being and the relative wave of individual manifestation, tracing how conceptual clarity must eventually transpose into the unconditional, open-ended love and embrace of the heart.

Ultimately, both teachers conclude that the pathless path demands a continuous, radical emptying of the self, framing the act of teaching not as an exercise in knowing, but as an intimate, lifelong process of deepening into the unknown.

In this episode, host Stephan Bodian welcomes psychotherapist, author, and spiritual mentor Lynn Marie Lumiere to explore the vital intersection of nondual awakening, intimate relationships, and somatic trauma recovery.

They examine how shifting from an egocentric identity to awakened presence can fundamentally transform human relating. Lynn Marie explains that true "awakened relating" involves recognizing that the ultimate source of love and happiness is located within our own essential being rather than in an external partner, which naturally liberates relationships from the burden of co-dependency and unmet expectations.

Both emphasize that the journey toward full embodiment inevitably requires practitioners to confront unresolved relational and developmental trauma. Ignoring this wounding through abstract spiritual truths or spiritual bypassing often fails when the nervous system remains locked in a state of chronic fight-or-flight or dissociation.

By integrating nondual presence with targeted somatic resourcing and relational therapeutic support, Lynn Marie advises, practitioners can safely regulate their physiology, unpack deeply repressed emotional states, and transition from defensive fragmentation into an integrated, loving, and fully alive human expression.

And Stephan shares from his new book a number of ways that trauma can make awakening and especially spiritual embodiment more complicated—but also provide a profound motivation on the path.