What happens when you finally become whole—but realize not everyone can come with you?

In this episode, I talk openly about the quiet loneliness that can follow healing: the distance from old relationships, the grief of outgrowing familiar spaces, and the courage it takes to stand fully as yourself without shrinking. This is a conversation about choosing wholeness even when it costs comfort, trusting God in the in-between, and learning that being alone is not the same as being abandoned.

If you’ve ever felt isolated after doing the hard work of becoming whole, this episode is for you.

In this first episode, Alvin shares the truth behind the cost of becoming himself—after years of performing, hiding, and searching for love in all the wrong places. This is the story of rejection, healing, and the moment God met him in the darkness.

If you’ve ever felt unseen, rejected, or forced to be someone you’re not… this episode is for you.