Over the last couple of months, a lot has changed in my life.

I’ve been balancing the start of this podcast alongside a fairly structured training phase, whilst also trying to organise my life and coaching in a much more deliberate way. In the process, I’ve realised how much low-level pressure and friction I’d been carrying around for years without fully noticing it.

In this episode, I speak more openly about where I’m currently at psychologically with climbing, performance, identity and motivation.

I talk about:

• why climbing feels different to me right now
• the relationship between attention and performance
• how organisation changed my mindset more than I expected
• insecurity, pressure and emotional attachment to climbing
• why I no longer feel threatened by stronger climbers
• and where I want to take the podcast moving forwards

This episode is also a transition point for the podcast itself.

The first 10 episodes were a chance for me to explore ideas, learn how to record/edit and slowly find my voice. The next phase will involve more collaborative and exploratory conversations with other climbers - looking deeper into the psychology, identity, fear, obsession and motivations behind performance.

I’m really excited to see where it goes from here.