Life can bury our original voice beneath rejection, responsibility, and survival, but it cannot destroy it.

In Episode 37, I share an encounter with a massive old IYour Majesty and what she helped me recognize about taking up space, trusting my voice, and returning to the woman I was created to be.

What part of you existed before you learned to become smaller?

What has been buried beneath your survival?

Are you still asking permission to occupy the life God gave you?

That tree did not give me my sovereignty. She reminded me that it had always been there.

The Sovereign Root Butterfly The Becoming

Some Nights, the Past Comes Looking for You is about those quiet hours when old fears return and suddenly everything you thought you had moved beyond is standing in the room with you again.

In this deeply personal episode of Butterfly The Becoming, I share what happened when I recognized that the fear consuming me belonged to a version of myself who had spent years learning how to survive. Rather than fighting her or allowing her fear to take over, I finally understood why she was there.

This episode is for anyone who has ever discovered that moving forward doesn't always mean the past stops calling—it means you no longer have to answer it the same way. If you've ever awakened in the night carrying yesterday, worrying about tomorrow, and searching for something greater than fear to guide you, this story may feel like your own.

What if the answers you’ve been searching for aren’t somewhere ahead of you?

A forgotten dream. Something you’ve done naturally for years. A gift you never thought to call a gift. Pieces of your life that seemed completely unrelated at the time.

In this episode of Butterfly The Becoming, I look back at my own life and uncover a pattern I had missed for decades — one that changed the way I think about purpose, God’s direction, and the question so many of us carry: What is my purpose?

Maybe finding your way isn’t always about discovering something new.

Maybe there are things your life has been showing you all along.

The Answers Were Already There.

In this deeply personal reflection, I share what it was like to return to my childhood home carrying decades of memories, disappointment, hope, and unanswered questions.

Surrounded by family expectations, financial uncertainty, and the weight of the past, an unexpected encounter with butterflies became a quiet reminder that transformation rarely looks beautiful while it is happening.

This isn't a story about butterflies.

It's a story about exile, returning, and discovering that the struggle may not be evidence you've lost your way—it may be part of becoming who you were created to be.

If you've ever wondered whether you've come too far, waited too long, or missed your purpose, this story is for you.

There comes a moment when truth gets louder than comfort.

A moment when you feel the pain of the world so deeply you have to stop and ask—

I asked God a question I could no longer outrun: Who am I? What followed was not silence—but an answer that changed how I see pain, purpose, and the world itself. This is a story about awakening.

In this episode, I wrestle with awakening, suffering, truth, and the deeper question no one talks about:

What is the gain?

Because if awakening only leaves you in despair…

something is incomplete.

What if you've been remembering yourself in pieces?

Many of us remember the experiences that hurt us with remarkable clarity. The disappointments. The losses. The chapters that changed us.

But what if there is another part of the story waiting to be remembered?

Because your life is not only the story of what happened to you. It is also the story of what emerged from you.

There are things people carry quietly for years while appearing completely fine from the outside.

In this short reflection, I speak about hidden struggle, silence, learning later in life, and what it feels like to slowly reclaim your voice after believing you were behind for much of your life.

This is not a story about perfection.

It is a story about becoming.

There is life behind these words.

In this episode of Butterfly The Becoming, Monette sits inside the quiet tension that comes when a life no longer fits the person you have become.

What happens when the familiar path still offers safety… but something deeper inside you can no longer return to it?

Through reflection, uncertainty, exhaustion, rebuilding, and truth, this episode explores the emotional crossroads many people quietly face when standing between survival and the life that continues calling them forward.

A grounded conversation about fear, change, identity, and the difficult honesty required to keep walking toward a life that has not fully revealed itself yet.