In this episode of Between Light & Shadow: The Story of God, Creation, and Us, we step into one of the most misunderstood figures in ancient wisdom: Lilith — the first woman, the exiled feminine, and the archetype of unclaimed power.

But this isn’t a retelling of folklore.

It’s an exploration of the human psyche, the parts of ourselves we suppress, and the spiritual inheritance of being both light and shadow.

Inside this episode, we explore:

• The truth behind Lilith’s exile and why her story was erased
• How she embodies the shadow feminine — intuition, sexuality, rage, and truth
• The link between abandonment wounds, relationship patterns, and self-betrayal
• Why the feminine that refuses to shrink is often labeled dangerous
• How exile becomes a mirror for our own suppressed power

This is a story about reclaiming what was stolen — not just from mythology, but from us.

It’s about understanding the parts you learned to hide so deeply that they became the shadow driving your choices, relationships, and identity.

If you’ve ever felt silenced, punished for your voice, or taught to fear your own power, this episode will speak to the part of you that’s been waiting to be seen.

Raw. Honest. Spiritual.

A journey into the feminine shadow we were never supposed to understand.

In this episode we step into one of the most misunderstood stories of human history — the serpent, the fruit, and the moment everything changed.

But instead of talking mythology, we talk psychology.

We talk shadow work.

We talk us.

This episode explores desire, temptation, and the inner conflicts we inherit just by being human. We unpack why we crave what harms us, why we’re drawn to what awakens us, and how the very thing we fear is usually the part of ourselves we’ve buried the deepest.

Christina breaks down the symbolism of the serpent as the unconscious, the fruit as forbidden self-knowledge, and the fall as the moment we stepped into awareness, responsibility, and choice.

This is not a story about punishment — it’s a story about awakening.

If you’re someone who feels torn between who you were and who you’re becoming…

If you’ve ever wrestled with desire, shame, secrets, or “forbidden” impulses…

If you’ve ever been tempted by a relationship or a pattern you knew would break you…

This episode will hit home.

Expect truth.

Expect reflection.

Expect to see yourself in ways you never have.

In this episode of Facing the Mirror, we explore Kabbalah, creation, and the spiritual anatomy of the human psyche through a trauma-informed, attachment-aware lens. This is one of the deepest and most transformative breakdowns of how the universe began and how that story mirrors the roots of shadow work, trauma responses, emotional patterns, and relationship dynamics.

We start with the ancient Kabbalistic teaching that everything began as one unified light. For creation to unfold, the light had to contract, shatter, and separate — a cosmic blueprint that mirrors the emotional fragmentation humans experience through abandonment, attachment trauma, and early developmental wounds. This episode draws a direct line between the breaking of the vessels and the creation of your ego, your defenses, and the parts of yourself you exiled to survive.

You’ll learn how this original spiritual separation becomes the foundation for:
• Shadow work
• Love addiction and trauma bonds
• Nervous system dysregulation
• Fearful avoidant and anxious attachment
• Patterns of choosing emotionally unavailable partners
• People-pleasing and self-betrayal
• Codependency and fantasy bonds
• Repetition compulsions
• Hypervigilance after trauma

We break down the emotional “creation story” behind your patterns — how the ego formed as a protector, why the shadow holds the traits you repress, and how your inner child and inner teenager carry the wounds created during your earliest experiences of separation, neglect, or unmet needs.

This episode also explores:
• The connection between Kabbalah and attachment wounds
• How ego forms in response to trauma and survival learning
• Why spiritual awakening requires psychological integration
• How subconscious programs shape your relationships
• Why shadow work is essential for breaking toxic cycles
• How emotional triggers reveal unhealed spiritual wounds
• Why you’re drawn to partners who activate childhood patterns
• The real root of “why you tolerate too much”

You’ll hear how ancient spiritual wisdom aligns with modern psychology, somatic healing, and trauma-informed care. This is shadow work without fluff, spirituality without bypassing, and emotional healing without self-blame.

By the end of this episode, you’ll understand:
• Why you repeat cycles you intellectually know how to avoid
• How your nervous system stores the “shattered vessels” of your past
• Why your shadow holds your greatest power
• How integration begins when you stop running from yourself
• How to reclaim the parts of you that were abandoned
• Why healing your patterns starts with understanding where they were born

This episode is for anyone healing from:
• Narcissistic abuse
• Toxic relationships
• Emotional abandonment
• Trauma bonds
• Love addiction
• Breakups and unrequited love
• Hyper-independence
• Codependency
• Attachment trauma

And for anyone who craves deeper clarity about their purpose, their patterns, and their consciousness.

If you’re ready for spiritual psychology, radical honesty, and a deeper understanding of who you are at your core, this episode will change how you see yourself, your relationships, and your healing.

Press play and meet the version of you that existed before the wound — and the one rising now.

What happens when shadow meets shadow? In this episode of Facing the Mirror, Christina dives into the archetypal story of Lilith and Lucifer — not as demons, but as reflections of our own repressed power, desire, and defiance. This isn’t about evil; it’s about evolution.

Through a transpersonal lens, Christina unpacks how the myth of their union represents the sacred marriage between our light and our darkness — the inner rebellion that awakens when we stop seeking external validation and start embracing self-sovereignty. You’ll explore themes of divine duality, ego death, and the seductive pull of liberation versus illusion.

This episode challenges you to ask:
🔥 What parts of me have I demonized to stay “good”?
🔥 Am I rejecting what actually makes me whole?
🔥 What happens when I meet my own darkness — and choose to love it?

Listen with an open heart. Reflect with an unflinching mind.
Because the real “dark union” isn’t between Lilith and Lucifer — it’s the one within you.

🎧 Hosted by Christina Stuller — Counselor, Life Coach & Creator of Tranquil Balance.
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I received a lot of feedback and yes! there was another episode recorded for this.

By popular demand - here is that other recording

Long before Eve, there was Lilith.

Created from the same dust as Adam, she was his equal — not his rib, not his shadow. But when Adam demanded her submission, Lilith refused. She spoke the secret name of God and chose exile over silence.

In this episode of Between Light and Shadow: Stories of God, Creation, and Us, Christina Stuller of Tranquil Balance uncovers the mystery of Lilith — the first woman erased, demonized, and misunderstood. Was she a demoness? A goddess? A symbol of rebellion? Or the shadow of feminine power we’re still trying to reconcile today?

We’ll explore:

• Lilith’s exile from Eden and why she became legend.

• How her story mirrors the parts of ourselves that we silence or abandon.

• The danger — and necessity — of rebellion when faced with oppression.

• Why Lilith remains a powerful archetype in shadow work, psychology, and spirituality.

💡 In this episode you’ll reflect on:

• Where in your life you’ve been told you were “too much.”

• What parts of yourself you’ve exiled to stay accepted or safe.

• How reclaiming your inner Lilith can bring power, voice, and healing.

✨ Reflection Prompts:

1. What truths have I silenced in order to keep peace?

2. Where am I ready to reclaim the power I once abandoned?

3. If Lilith is the shadow self, what does she have to teach me?

Lilith’s story is not just ancient myth. It’s the story of every voice that refuses to be silenced. It’s the shadow feminine in each of us, waiting not to destroy us — but to make us whole.

⚠️ Disclaimer: This episode may contain raw audio with less editing than usual. The power is in the story, not in the polish — thank you for listening with an open mind and heart.

When pride rose in heaven and Lucifer led a rebellion, one angel stood firm. His name was Michael. His very name means “Who is like God?” — a declaration that no created being could rival the Creator.

In this episode of Between Light and Shadow: Stories of God, Creation, and Us, Christina Stuller of Tranquil Balance brings you the story of Michael — the angel who drew his sword not for glory, not for power, but for truth.

We’ll explore:

• Michael’s role as heaven’s protector and warrior.

• How his loyalty stood in stark contrast to Lucifer’s pride.

• Why true strength comes not from ambition, but from faithfulness.

• How Michael’s story mirrors our own struggles to stand firm when compromise feels easier.

💡 In this episode you’ll reflect on:

• Where in your life you’re being called to stand firm, even when it costs you.

• What it means to fight for truth instead of recognition.

• How courage looks different from pride and why obedience is its own kind of strength.

✨ Reflection Prompts:

1. Where am I tempted to go along with the crowd instead of staying true to my values?

2. What would it look like for me to pick up Michael’s sword — not literally, but spiritually — and defend what matters?

3. How do I define strength: recognition, or faithfulness?

Michael’s story reminds us: strength is not found in being followed, admired, or adored. Strength is found in standing with truth even if you stand alone.

⚠️ Disclaimer: This episode is raw and authentic. The editing may not be perfect, and you may notice a few rough edges in the audio. But that’s the point because just like shadow work, these conversations aren’t about polish, they’re about truth. Thank you for listening with grace as the stories and lessons take center stage.

The Morning Star – Lucifer’s Rise and Fall

What does it take to fall from grace?

How do you go from being the most radiant, the most gifted, the most beloved… to becoming the most rejected?

In this first episode of Between Light and Shadow: Stories of God, Creation, and Us, Christina Stuller of Tranquil Balance takes you into one of the most haunting and powerful stories ever told: the rise and fall of Lucifer, the Morning Star.

Once considered God’s favorite angel, Lucifer was clothed in beauty, adorned in wisdom, and called the light-bringer. But pride whispered in his heart. Instead of reflecting divine light, he wanted to become the source of it. What began as ambition turned into rebellion. And rebellion led to war in heaven.

You’ll hear the story of Lucifer’s fall as told through scripture, Jewish mysticism, and spiritual folklore — and more importantly, you’ll discover why this story still matters today. Because Lucifer isn’t just a figure from ancient myth. He’s the archetype of pride, of ego, of the temptation every human being faces to believe, “I don’t need to reflect the light. I am the light.”

This episode blends dramatic storytelling with psychology, theology, and shadow work to reveal the truth behind the myth:

• The beauty and brilliance of Lucifer before the fall

• How pride grows quietly until it poisons everything

• The cosmic battle between ego and humility

• Why Lucifer’s story is a mirror for our own struggles with control, recognition, and power

Christina doesn’t sugarcoat. She guides you to see how these ancient stories are really about us — about our own shadows, our own downfalls, and our own chance for redemption.

💡 In this episode you’ll reflect on:

• Where pride may be hiding in your own life

• How ego sabotages gifts and relationships

• Why humility is strength, not weakness

• How to recognize the “Lucifer moment” in yourself before it leads to destruction

✨ Reflection Prompts:

1. Think of a time when your gifts became heavy. How did pride twist them?

2. Where in your life do you feel entitled — and how is that entitlement holding you back?

3. What relationships have suffered because of pride?

4. If you are a mirror, whose light are you reflecting right now?

Whether you see Lucifer as a fallen angel, an archetype of ego, or a myth meant to warn humanity, his story has endured because it forces us to look at ourselves.

Because in the end, the Morning Star’s fall is not just about him.
It’s about us.

About the Podcast:
Between Light and Shadow explores the myths, archetypes, and spiritual stories that have shaped humanity. From angels and demons to creation itself, Christina Stuller of Tranquil Balance blends theology, psychology, and shadow work to uncover how these ancient tales are mirrors for our own lives. Because your shadow is not your enemy. It’s your teacher.

✨ Episode 1: The Morning Star – Lucifer’s Rise and Fall is now streaming.