What if the season where nothing seems to be happening isn't actually fruitless?

In this episode, I'm unpacking something I've been wrestling with deeply: the difference between waiting on God and hiding behind fear.

We'll talk about the way trees grow underground before there's ever visible fruit, the different kinds of "dark" seasons we experience, and how to discern whether we're resting, surviving, building roots--or simply afraid to move.

I'm also sharing what this looks like in my own life right now: building The Becoming Project, opening Soul Circle, launching teacher training, putting myself online when it feels incredibly cringy and learning to do things before I feel completely ready.

Because potential is safe. Potential never fails, gets rejected, or embarrasses itself. But at some point, becoming requires us to stop protecting who we could be and risk discovering who we’re actually becoming.

Maybe faithfulness isn’t knowing something will work.

Maybe it’s being willing to move without the guarantee—because we trust God will still be faithful even if we fall flat on our face.

If you’ve been wondering whether you’re in a season of waiting, growing, surviving—or hiding—this conversation is for you.

Ten days into The Becoming Project, I’m already learning that building the life you want might have less to do with creating a completely different life—and more to do with finally inhabiting the one you already have.

In this episode, I’m sharing what has surprised me most so far: why the ordinary moments have been more meaningful than the big ones, what I’m learning about the endless search for happiness, why I’m no longer asking this life to satisfy a hunger it was never meant to fill, and how public accountability is helping me stop overthinking and actually move.

We’ll also talk about what happens when survival mode is no longer necessary—but you haven’t quite figured out who you are on the other side of it.

I’m learning to change what isn’t working, build what matters, explore what I haven’t experienced yet, and cherish the beautiful life that’s already here.

I don’t know who I’ll be on Day 100.

But ten days in, I’m starting to realize: maybe becoming isn’t about wishing for a different life.

Maybe it’s about learning how to fully live inside it.

What happens when you stop waiting for your dream life and start building it inside the life you already have?

I'm giving myself 100 days.

In the first episode of The Becoming Project, I'm sharing the why behind these 100 days--where the idea came from, what I'm hoping to build, and the tension I'm learning to hold between wanting more and being deeply grateful for what I already have.

I'm launching things before I feel ready, trying things that scare me, changing what isn't working, and saying yes to things that sound fun.

But I'm also learning to notice that some of the life I've been dreaming about is already here.

I don't know who I'll be or where this will lead by Day 100. That's kind of the point.

If you've spent a season surviving--or you've ever wondered if it's possible to want more without missing the life happening right in front of you--come with me.

This is Day 1 of The Becoming Project.