I don’t have answers in this episode.
I don’t have a breakthrough.
I don’t even really know what I want right now.

What I do have is this very real feeling of being in between versions of myself — and I needed to talk about it out loud.

Lately, it feels like parts of my identity are dissolving. The goals I used to chase don’t hit the same. I’m tired of fixing everything and everyone. I’m noticing how much emotional labor I used to do just to keep the peace — and I’m not doing that anymore… which is bringing up a lot of guilt, grief, and “wait… am I the problem?” energy.

I’m questioning my work.
I’m questioning my relationships.
I’m questioning my entire life.
And honestly? I don’t know what I’m doing with any of it.

This isn’t a motivational episode. There’s no “trust the process” speech here. It’s just an honest conversation about what it feels like when the life you built stops making sense, the version of you that held it all together starts to fall apart, and the next version hasn’t shown up yet.

If you’ve ever felt lost, unmotivated, emotionally raw, or like you’re relearning how to exist as yourself — this one’s for you.

I became “that bitch.”
And now I’m realizing I don’t want to be her anymore.

Thanks for sitting in the middle with me.