You know exactly what you need to change. So why haven't you changed it?

In this episode, Drake and Holly explore one of the most universal human experiences: the mind's fierce resistance to its own transformation. Starting with the Greek concept of metanoia, a change of mind so complete it's like becoming a different person, they examine why genuine change feels like death to the psyche and why the brain fights it with every tool at its disposal. From the neuroscience of homeostasis and prediction models to Freud's clinical observations of therapeutic resistance, from shamanic dismemberment rituals to Buddhist teachings on attachment, they trace how every serious wisdom tradition has encountered this phenomenon and developed ways to work with it. In a rare moment of directness about MAAOoT's actual curriculum, Drake and Holly discuss why understanding the metanoia block is one of the very first things new students learn, and why this single piece of awareness underpins everything that follows in the work.

In This Episode: - Metanoia: what genuine transformation actually means (and why "repentance" misses the point) - Your brain as prediction machine: why familiar suffering beats unknown freedom - The neuroscience of homeostasis, the default mode network, and the metabolic cost of change - Freud, Jung, and the psychology of resistance - Terror Management Theory: identity as mortality buffer - Shamanic dismemberment, Christian kenosis, Sufi fana, Buddhist attachment - Wilhelm Reich's character armour: where resistance lives in the body - Why resistance is proportional to the significance of the change - Why MAAOoT teaches the metanoia block first and what changes when you can recognise it - The difference between being in control and being controlled - Listener Q&A: Zhuangzi's dream and practical living, can secrets survive the modern age, preserving wisdom from fragmentary sources

About Ab Immemorabili: A podcast exploring ancient wisdom traditions for modern seekers, produced by the Most Ancient Anamnetic Order of Trikala (MAAOoT). Through one-on-one mentorship over 3-5 years, students work through 15 wisdom traditions integrating philosophy, practical psychology, and embodied practice.

Connect With Us: Email your questions, reflections, and challenges to podcast@maaoot.org Learn more at www.maaoot.org

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What if the most important skill for our uncertain age was articulated by a twenty-two-year-old poet in a casual letter about a pantomime?

In this episode, Drake and Holly explore John Keats' concept of negative capability, the capacity to remain in uncertainty without anxiously grasping for resolution. They trace this idea from Keats' famous 1817 letter through Shakespeare's extraordinary ability to disappear into his characters, the Christian mystical tradition of unknowing from the Cloud of Unknowing to Meister Eckhart, and the psychology of why uncertainty feels so threatening. Cross-cultural connections illuminate how Zen's "don't-know mind," Sufi bewilderment, and Daoist wu wei all circle the same profound insight. In an age that demands instant opinions and ready-made answers, negative capability may be the most radical practice available.

In This Episode: - Keats' letter of December 21, 1817: the birth of a concept - Shakespeare as the supreme example of negative capability - The Cloud of Unknowing and the Christian via negativa - Meister Eckhart, John of the Cross, and luminous darkness - Zen, Sufism, and Daoism: cross-cultural parallels - The psychology of certainty-seeking and need for cognitive closure - Wilfred Bion's "without memory and desire" - The body's role in grasping and releasing - How to practise staying with the question - Listener Q&A: the paradox of words about wordlessness, Socrates' choice and his family, sacred geometry and spiritual meaning

About Ab Immemorabili: A podcast exploring ancient wisdom traditions for modern seekers, produced by the Most Ancient Anamnetic Order of Trikala (MAAOoT). Through one-on-one mentorship over 3-5 years, students work through 15 wisdom traditions integrating philosophy, practical psychology, and embodied practice.

Connect With Us: Email your questions, reflections, and challenges to podcast@maaoot.org Learn more at www.maaoot.org

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What does it actually mean to live a balanced life, and why is the ancient answer so much harder than the modern one?

In this episode, Drake and Holly explore Aristotle's doctrine of the mean from the Nicomachean Ethics, unpacking why "everything in moderation" completely misses the point. They examine what Aristotle actually taught about virtue as excellence between extremes, why finding the mean requires practical wisdom that no formula can replace, and how this ancient Greek insight resonates with the Buddhist Middle Way, Confucian Zhongyong, Daoist balance, and Islamic wasatiyyah. From modern wellness culture to work-life questions, they explore why extremes are always easier than the genuine work of finding the right measure for your particular life.

In This Episode: - Why "everything in moderation" misrepresents Aristotle - The doctrine of the mean: virtue as excellence between extremes - Phronesis: the practical wisdom needed to find the mean - Specific virtues explored: courage, generosity, truthfulness, wittiness, temperance, justice - Cross-cultural parallels: Buddhist Middle Way, Confucian Zhongyong, Daoist balance, Islamic wasatiyyah - Why extremes are easier than balance - Modern applications: wellness culture, work, and daily decisions - Listener Q&A: beginner's mind in surgery, science's Hermetic roots, failure vs. giving up

About Ab Immemorabili: A podcast exploring ancient wisdom traditions for modern seekers, produced by the Most Ancient Anamnetic Order of Trikala (MAAOoT). Through one-on-one mentorship over 3-5 years, students work through 15 wisdom traditions integrating philosophy, practical psychology, and embodied practice.

Connect With Us: Email your questions, reflections, and challenges to podcast@maaoot.org Learn more at www.maaoot.org

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